I was feeling a bit out of sorts and then I remembered that the anniversary of my deceased, youngest daughter’s birthday Kelyn was coming up; she would be turning 9. She was a twin so I can’t help but to think about her as I prepare to celebrate my living child Keren’s birthday. It doesn’t help that I randomly found a necklace with Kelyn’s name on it, today. Sometimes, grief hits hard especially when it is triggered. No matter what—I’m determined to process it.
So what did I do? As I cried, I headed over to see if my counselor had any available online appointments. Because I know that this is a fragile time for me, I know I need support. You know what? There is nothing wrong with that. As I write this, I wonder why am I blogging this post?
Besides trying to jump-start blogging again, I share this not for pity but to encourage anyone who is dealing with the loss of their loved one to talk to someone if possible, preferably, a licensed therapist. It took me a few years to finally see one but when I did, it helped me tremendously! For me, finding a Christian therapist was a blessing but your preferences are totally up to you. He has prayed for me and provided sound biblical counsel through the years. While the sessions started out dealing with grief, it has moved into so many different areas of healing for me.
I remember buying two of everything and now I buy only one set. I only celebrate one birthday on September 10th now. What a hard reality to face…I don’t have many words tonight. Just tears and memories.
Here are pictures of the twin's birthdays from newborn to age 5, together.
New Jersey Native. Proud Haitian-American. UNC-Chapel Hill (First-Generation College) Graduate. Double Tar Heel who obtained a Doctorate from NC State. Educator. Devoted Daughter and Sister. Loving Wife and Mother. Lover of People. Photographer. Poet. Home Chef. Singer. Worshiper. Preacher and Motivational Speaker. Virtuous Woman. I am who I am by the Grace of God.